sorry

I am a really bad blogger. but i have good reasons. i have 2 grandparents that are very very sick and a hubby that is very stubborn. but other than that, everything is good. the girls are getting bigger. i swear kimber learns a new word everyday and paige is so excited about school starting. (so is mommy!!) my life has been revolving around my sick family and trying to keep my girls away from knowing too much. i'm not so worried about kimber, but i worry about paige knowing too much too soon. is that wrong?

my how time flies

well, can you believe it? my little paige turns 5 in 1 week. she will be starting school in 4 months. she is so excited...me, not so much. i love the idea that she is getting older, but at the same time, i hate it. she seems to need me less and less. she picks out her own clothes, washes her own hair, and makes her own bed. now what do i do?

toby and i will be celebrating our 5th anniversary in 3 days. (it sure seems like a whole lot longer!) we have our spats, but i do love him very much. he knows what buttons to push to piss me off but in return he knows what buttons to push to get him self out of trouble. (backrubs are a really really good start!) i don't know what we are going to be doing for our anniversary, or if i am even getting anything. we shall see!

karyn, the girl i had been riding with at work, she quit friday night. i completely understand why she did it. we put a lot of miles on our personal vehicle, and its getting more and more expensive everyday to put gas in our cars. but i love my job and i am thankful for the opportunity to work as a phlebotomist. most places want you to have 2 years of experiance. (how can i get it if no one will give it to me????) but now when i move i will be able to put my 1 year of experience down and know that i have a chance at this job. but as for karyn, i wish her the best of luck with whatever she might go on to do. she has 3 years of phlebotomy experience behind her. she can go anywhere and probably make better money than what she was making with us. but i hope that she keeps in touch with me, phone, e-mail, myspace. i don't care how as long as she keeps in touch! we had a lot in common and i consider her a good friend!

well, i better get off here. i am getting very tired and i just bought some new pillows and i am just dying to try them out!!!

sweet dreams everyone!

we are going to float away!!!

i can't handle this stupid weather. we are never going to dry up. tonight we have major thunderstorms here in arkansas. i hate them. i don't like thunder or lightning... it scares me. but what scares me the most is a tornado. i haven't really had to deal with them. but they still scare me. i even hear about tornado warnings or hear those weather sirens, i'm hiding in a closet! so enough about my fears, i have a lot and it could take days to discuss them!
i have been training a new girl at work. and let me tell you we are 2 peas in a pod! we have so much in common its just nuts. but she is so much fun to hang out with. (yeah i know, sure now you found a friend and your going to move! SHUT UP!!! i have already thought about that!) i hope that we are able to keep in touch. we just laugh the entire time we are together. we are going to try and go out this weekend. hmmm what kind of trouble can we get into? any suggestions? on a sappier note... i will miss her dearly when i move. i hope that we can keep in touch by phone or computer. (we are texting masters!!!!) but she does give me a really good reason to come back and visit! i can't wait to hang out with her this weekend!! woo hoo

selection sunday!!!

so its march madness. i think the only people that read my blog are women. sorry, ladies but this one is probably going to bore you to tears! but here it goes...
I LOVE COLLEGE BASKETBALL!!!! i am a die hard kentucky wildcats fan! (yes i know they got beat yesterday. i watched the game.) but my hubby doesn't like basketball. actually the only sport that he watches is baseball, and he is a die hard reds fan. but he feels that it is extremely funny to cheer on the team that is playing my wildcats. why can't he just leave me alone. let me watch my games. but it really drives him nuts that i watch ALL the games. not just my team! hey i have a bracket to watch. my whole family watches the wildcats. i can't wait to get up there and be able to watch the games with my family and compare our brackets. i think i do pretty good! but we shall see. all i can say is GO WILDCATS!!! and lets just hope they get better than a 12th seed spot!!!

so i guess i'll write about my wonderful children!!! (how can i emphasize the sarcasm in that phrase??) miss paige has been getting into everything lately. this morning i found her eating a plain hotdog bun and a hamburger bun. i was dealing with kimber when she got into this. why couldn't she just say, "hey mom i'm hungery". then she got into my diet drink mixes. she and kimber both love them so i buy them instead of kool aid. she uses the one that makes 2qts instead of the one that is for a bottle of water. yucky! so i made her stand in the corner while i gave her the "your old enough to know better" speech. now for miss kimber. i know your thinking, "she is only 1 how much trouble can she possibly get into?" well let me tell you... she tears up any piece of paper that she can find. and not into big pieces. teeny tiny pieces. not to mention that she has started these huge temper tantrums. she pulls on her hair and then throws herself backwards onto the floor. then she wiggles and rolls around on the floor the whole time she is doing this she is screaming at the top of her lungs!!!!!! i want to pull my own hair out!! but i guess thats all for now!
oh yeah one more thing...
GO WILDCATS!!!

is anyone else ready for spring?

i am so tired of this cold weather. its hard to keep the kids healthy, because goodness knows they don't want to keep socks on, sweatshirts on, just clothes on in general! paige came out of her room yesterday wearing her bikini! once i got done laughing i had to tell her to change back into her winter clothes and put the summer clothes away! kimber is still just refusing to stop crawling. she will walk half way across the room and then crawl the rest of the way. i guess she will get there one day! i am trying to shed those unwanted pounds. i realized this when paige heard me call it "baby fat" and she said no mommy your just fat. after i finished crying into my pint of ben and jerry's, i thanked her and hugged her and started on the treadmill. toby is also working on losing the weight. i worry so much about his weight, but i have honestly tried everything...nagging, guilt, begging, absolutely everything. he just one day decided that it was time to lose the weight. we got him a treadmill that will hold his weight and we both walked a mile our first day! woo hoo. my goal is to be in a size 6 jeans by my birthday (july 1). i will be 30 years old, and i would love to look great. of course i can't do a lot of exercising on my upper body since my arm is still "out of order", but i can work on my abs and lower body! so wish me luck!!!!!

you thought i got lost, didn't you!!

i'm still with the living, but its been a month since i last posted. a lot has happened in a month!
the last day that i posted on here was january 15, on january 16 while i was at work i managed to slip down some stairs and break my elbow! i had to have surgery, they put 2 screws in. but before they could do that they had to remove part of my ligament in my arm and the put the screws in then reattach the ligament! sounds pretty painful doesn't it? well let me tell you from experience, it is the worst pain that i have ever felt in my entire life! the surgeon wanted to do it at the local surgery center. i had heard lots of good things about it so i thought that it would be okay. well, i had a very bad experience and i will never have another surgery done there again! they didn't put a catheter in me so when i got out of surgery my bladder was so full i thought i was going to bust! then they gave me 2 pain pills when i told them that i was hurting, like that was going to help. i asked them to give me something for pain through my iv. but nooooo, they said that the pain pills would do just fine. LIKE HELL!!! i had 20 staples in my arm. i have therepy 3 times a week. and i now have a brace on my arm that looks like something directly out of the Saw movies!!! now, they are saying that i may have to have another surgery! woo hoo don't i sound excited? i can't do a damn thing around my house, i'm going crazy and this news isn't helping any at all. i can't extend my elbow past a 90 degree angle. i can't use my arm for anything. i can't write, hold anything with that hand. grrrrr. i have been out of work for a month and i am a complete basketcase!
but other than that, same old shit different day. we won't be moving till i am released by my dr. so now we are looking at not moving till march or april! (i'm not happy about that either!) the girls are doing really good. kimber is walking, well 5 steps then she will sit down, and then get up and walk another few steps! paige is getting pissy about when we are moving, she is ready to be with her cousins and her mimi and poppy! i don't blame her! we will be so close to my family and toby's family it will be great! i grew up with my cousins and i loved it. i want my kids to know that feeling also. i miss my inlaws a great deal they are a fun bunch of people and since we live so far away i feel that we are out of the loop on the family thing. one of toby's sisters is getting ready to have a baby girl in april and the other sister is getting married in may. i would love to be there for both of those very special occasions! well, i have blabbed on for some time now, so i am going to get off here i will try and keep everyone posted a little better this time!

hello tuesday

well its a freezing cold day here in nw arkansas! i am on call today, here's hoping that they don't call me out! well, we found 4 houses that fit my criteria. now if only when i call them they can email me pics so i don't have to have my mom go look at the houses for me! i also found a couple of job openings for me. hopefully they will still be available when i am ready to be up there. it would be really nice to have a job as soon as i get there. then i don't have to worry about money. my mom said that there are several factories and warehouses up there for toby to work at! woo hoo!!! now i have to figure out who to call to get my national phlebotomy license. once i have that i am ready to move, well once my tax money gets here! then i'll be ready to go. oh how i hate moving and moving 14 hours away is so difficult. we have to have a u-haul truck, trailer and car hauler. this is going to suck ass!!!!! both of my sisters and their families are moving up there also. the only difference is, is that they both are having the military move them. damn them! they don't have to do a thing. just drive there and unpack their shit. so do i want to hear them griping about this move? no, not one damn word! i am looking to get rid of a bunch of stuff that i don't need. if i don't use it, wear it, or really need it...its gone! i hate moving so i don't want to move a bunch of stuff that i reallly don't need. i have a shitload of extra kitchen stuff. (i could probably completely stock 3 kitchens!) i am going to see if my brother in law needs anything and if not, i think i will have a yard sale, or just donate it to a second hand store. i have bags and totes of clothes that i am getting rid of. i am just not keeping stuff i don't wear, the girls don't wear, or toby doesn't wear. ( he thinks he is keeping all his stuff, boy do i have news for him!!!) hopefully we can find a house that is roomy and i can let each of the girls have their own room and i can have my sewing room. that would be so nice. then i can lock myself away!!!!! well i better start checking on those houses!